Heart Racing

Heart racing
beating so fast
nerves a jumbled mess
I can't breath

Then I look up
standing there
you are standing there

Adrenalin rushing through my veins
happiness swelling in my chest
nerves calm
heart races on

You smile
but not at me
at her

The girl you want
the girl who isn't me
the girl who is my friend

Heart breaks a little more
hide the pain with a smile
watch as you embrace her

Watch as happiness walks away
listen closely
that's my heart
breaking
shattering

But all the while still racing