If You Were Still Here

I know the hardest thing for me to do
was say good-bye to you
you left with-out leaving a letter
which did not make any thing better

i know you didn't mean to leave
sometimes its still hard to believe
i don't want it to be true
I'm sick of feeling blue

sick of crying
part of me is dying
how much longer can i last
why cant i go back to the past

if i could go back to that day
i would take back everything i say
i would call you just to hear your voice
but in the end its not my choice

that day i lost so many tears
and mostly all my fears
i began to question 'why?'
as others began to say 'good-bye.'

i guess god really needed you
after all he knows what best to do
i don't see why so soon
why not fifty years from noon

i know he had a reason
maybe not the correct season
now its to late
i guess it was just your fate

I'm sorry you were in pain
you didn't die in vain
now many have turned to god
using just a simple nod

your an angel with a halo
and a pair of wings
now your in heaven
where there are a ton of seven's

still no easier on anyone here
we still have tons of fears
i still miss you everyday
i just don't know what to say

i'm lost without you in my life
its full of confusion and of strife
people say it gets easier as you move on
doesn't change the fact your really gone

i wish i could hug you one more time
i would pay a million dimes
even just a glimpse of you
if thats all he is able to do

i know your in my heart
i remember seeing you at the mart
the memories will for ever stay
some of them are etched in clay

I never want them to leave
in my heart i will always believe
not inside a case
you went to a better place

I love you, Jordan.