The Monster Named "IT"

Exhausted,
free,
Willing,
Tiring of the things that I go through every single day.
Like an undying cycle thats trying to kill me.
When will it ever end?
Well do you?
When you do find out,
Can you kill me and destroy the monster thats lurking out,
For I am tired of someone controling me,
and sooner or later that monster will come out and scream,
and that would be a day that you will regret,
for you were the one who created that horrid monster within.

That monster,
the monster you made me into,
the one that was hiding away,
but its creeping foward and crawling into my heart and brain,
its trying to take over,
What should i do?!
Just kill me already!
I cant take it,
i tried the razors,
the pills but nothings worked on me,
the monster was made and now it must be destroyed.

For something must be done,
before it sets loose and I go utterly crazy.
So please just kill me,
Kill me!
why must you do this to me!
The monster is hungry.
it needs to feed,
it wants to hurt you and I,
I dont want to chance another second with it,
knowing what it would do.
Well since you didn't kill it,
it already killed my heart when you left,
so now im numb and forgotten,
for i no longer have control over my own body,
I am the monster,
and i will stay and destroy this girl who was once one,
and now a helpless little thing,
gone with no where to turn and no one to turn to.
I am no longer Alex,
I am "IT".