How Can I Fall When You Just Won't Give Me Reasons

You hurt me.
Verbally slapped me in the face.
The taste of the reality is bitter.
How could you do this to me?

Look at how much time I've wasted.
I wasted it all on someone who was destined to destroy my heart.
I hate you...hate you...
You don't have a heart, nothing but a black hole.

But I love you deep inside.
I miss you..
I miss your smile
I miss your scent that brings me to tears when I encounter it.

I miss the feeling of your hand wrapped around mine.
I miss the feeling of your lips on my forehead.
I miss looking up at you and seeing your hazel eyes glowing with wonder.
I miss fighting over the remote with you.

I miss the way my friends envied us.
I miss the way you twirled me around.
I miss the way we could talk for hours and it never get old.
I miss seeing you everyday walking down my driveway to meet me.

I hate you and what you did to me.
I hate your betrayl.
I hate you for choosing her.
I hate you for using me and dropping me.

But I love you for caring.
I love you for giving up on your rebellious ways for me.
I love you for defending me.
I love you for taking care of me.

What can I say.
What can I do
Nothing
nothing......