A child's suicide

I am just curious,
what it is like,
to look into my pupils
and see they hold no light.

To carry on your life,
like everything is fine,
when I know you see the scars,
yeah; each and every line.

How can you talk to me,
when I look like a living corpse
my eyes are rimmed with red
and i have a funeral-like voice

Daddy I know your problem,
looking for all the ways
to take it out on me and mom,
'cuz we're always the ones that have to pay

You call us all the names,
they teach you in the books,
but what kills me the most,
is that hardened heartless look.

Like you wish that I were dead,
I disappoint you so much,
don't you see, it hurts so bad
not to have your fatherly touch?

Your damage over 16 years
cannot be forgiven
An infected, wounded heart,
breaking and love-sicken

Mommy, you can't take the stress,
so you too, take it out on me.
I'm caged by all your criticism,
without a way to break free.

Maybe I'm just an easy target,
'cause i too, take it out on myself
Slicing away at my skin,
because this razor is the only thing that helps

Why am I not good enough,
for anyone's love to be shown?
My must everyone I trust,
leave me all alone?

I cry and cry to myself,
because I can't accept this fate
I can't seem to understand
why i'm always the one to hate

The worst part is the sorry,
like you expect an award so great,
but nothing can take back,
the scars that I have made

Those wounds, they just re-open
everytime you yell,
But i'm bleeding on the inside
So i doubt that you could tell

It's a day to day occurance,
that she attempts to die
because of the ones who promise to love you;
a childs's suicide.

©HaleyxHardcore