In The Clouds

i feel unloved
i feel unwanted
it seems like no one wants me around
no one wants to be seen with me
i cant help but wonder
what would it be like
if i had a different life.
i cause pain
but never to myself
i dont think i would be able to
even though i can see me doing it.
no one would miss me
so why havent i done it already
why am i still living
when no one can see me
in my pain
where i am controlled
in a confined space
so why am i still here?
when i could be in the clouds.