pain

It hurts
No one knows why
Not even me
I can’t explain this feeling, but I don’t like it
I wish these thoughts would go away
I can’t explain how it feels
The feeling of the blood running down my finger tips
The razor blade in my hand
It feels good, yet painful at the same time
This is the only pleasure in my life
It gets rid of the mental pain
People don’t understand me
They say I have been acting different lately
No one understands why
They have tried sending me to therapy but I refuse to talk
I can’t explain what I feel to my friends
So how do they expect me to explain it to people I don’t know
I can’t explain it
It hurts but it feels so good