Dichotomy
I sit here thinking...
Wondering what exactly happened.
I'm trying to work it all out,
when was it I started blinking?
It wasn't that long ago, when we were good friends.
But now you've changed, you've started following the trends.
When nothing mattered, as long as you were there.
Yet you act as if nothing has changed and do not care.
When was the exact time, that moment you changed your mind?
How could I have not seen it, you leaving me lost, behind...
Right now i write this, squinting at the screen,
I can't work it out, man i really am blind.
I'm trying to put one name to this feeling of neglect.
A name that slips my mind and i wonder how i could forget.
Then i realise, one is not enough,
For it is too hard to find just one person...
One person who had now made my life rough.
When your chat pops up at the bottom of the page,
I get surprised, for it has been an age.
I haven't spoken to you since my formal,
Now when i speak to you, none of it seems normal.
I cannot laugh and joke with you,
I cannot call you awesome.
You seem so different since the last time i saw you,
As if you are a completely different person.
I look at you and see two faces,
These faces, belong to two places.
One is a school yard,
It holds good memories and play equipment.
the other is at a table,
full of girls and belongs to an establishment.
Once you were my best friend,
Now I'm waiting for this lunchtime to end.
There was once this girl,
A girl i would give anything to know.
She and I were so different, unlike me- she went with the flow.
We had so much in common, yet now.. I don't know.
I sit here, feeling repulsed but her image,
How is it i could like some one so much for so long?
How is it after all that time I cannot even look at them?
We met on our first day, she was the only person i could be with..
And feel like i could belong.
Has there ever been a person, someone who you were friends with.
the started dissing your good friend, making up all these myths.
How could they treat someone in such a way, and tell this to your face,
so you do the one thing you know how to; you put them in their place.
You ask you good friend what they could have done, why they would say such things,
You make sure everything is okay, make sure everyone has their bearings.
But what happens when the other person finds out?
Did you do something wrong? Does your close friend not deserve to know..
I sit here staring at the screen, wondering how we all became so mean.
All we ever wanted was to be wanted and noticed,
All I ever wanted was everyone to stop being such an actress.
Is it too much to ask,
That we all just take off our mask.
To sit in a room and reminisce, and all the present thoughts dismissed.
Wondering what exactly happened.
I'm trying to work it all out,
when was it I started blinking?
It wasn't that long ago, when we were good friends.
But now you've changed, you've started following the trends.
When nothing mattered, as long as you were there.
Yet you act as if nothing has changed and do not care.
When was the exact time, that moment you changed your mind?
How could I have not seen it, you leaving me lost, behind...
Right now i write this, squinting at the screen,
I can't work it out, man i really am blind.
I'm trying to put one name to this feeling of neglect.
A name that slips my mind and i wonder how i could forget.
Then i realise, one is not enough,
For it is too hard to find just one person...
One person who had now made my life rough.
When your chat pops up at the bottom of the page,
I get surprised, for it has been an age.
I haven't spoken to you since my formal,
Now when i speak to you, none of it seems normal.
I cannot laugh and joke with you,
I cannot call you awesome.
You seem so different since the last time i saw you,
As if you are a completely different person.
I look at you and see two faces,
These faces, belong to two places.
One is a school yard,
It holds good memories and play equipment.
the other is at a table,
full of girls and belongs to an establishment.
Once you were my best friend,
Now I'm waiting for this lunchtime to end.
There was once this girl,
A girl i would give anything to know.
She and I were so different, unlike me- she went with the flow.
We had so much in common, yet now.. I don't know.
I sit here, feeling repulsed but her image,
How is it i could like some one so much for so long?
How is it after all that time I cannot even look at them?
We met on our first day, she was the only person i could be with..
And feel like i could belong.
Has there ever been a person, someone who you were friends with.
the started dissing your good friend, making up all these myths.
How could they treat someone in such a way, and tell this to your face,
so you do the one thing you know how to; you put them in their place.
You ask you good friend what they could have done, why they would say such things,
You make sure everything is okay, make sure everyone has their bearings.
But what happens when the other person finds out?
Did you do something wrong? Does your close friend not deserve to know..
I sit here staring at the screen, wondering how we all became so mean.
All we ever wanted was to be wanted and noticed,
All I ever wanted was everyone to stop being such an actress.
Is it too much to ask,
That we all just take off our mask.
To sit in a room and reminisce, and all the present thoughts dismissed.