What Did I Do?

You called me beautiful
But when i called out to you
You never came
I was crushed, reduced to crying in a corner
How could you do this?
In my time of need
You left me alone to stand in the rain
I told you about all the scars and all the wounds
But you didnt try to heal them
All you did was re-open them
You shattered me into a million pieces
And because of you
I dont think im beautiful
I look in the mirror and see an undesirable being
Something no one could ever love
And even worse
I try to push everyone away who could ever love me
Becaus of you
I cant allow myself hapiness