Starcrossed

I'm a waste of space
That I'd rather waste with you
If I could take a moment
I'd crack open your ribs
And push through to what pulses beneath the blood

I woke up blurry and bleary eyed
Because I realized I'll never get away
From life like a broken record
But it used to play songs of a better time
Now it's full of screams
Through the dead of night

I scream for change
Though hope is long gone

I tried to take a shortcut to redemption
But only in dreams of yours
All these nightmare men
Tracking me down
On a desperate mission to peel skin from aching bone
One day, they'll find me you know
But you'll be there waiting,
Right?

To rescue me from waking night terrors
To bring a steady hand into this neverending convulsion
Waiting for me
Wouldn't you?

Dig up my secrets
Help me understand that whatever comes next
Fate will decide

Help me wash away the stars
And encase my life in paralyzing darkness
And help me clear the static from my eyes
It's hard to see your face through it all

I hope this war on myself will end soon

Comfort like a bullet to the brain
Or a mouthful of pills
Stretch out your heartstrings
To pluck me out a tune

I'm no longer welcome home

I'm writing to you the message you'd never receive
We should be mascots for the unrequited

All I need is a couple band-aids and my scissors
So maybe I can forget your touch
I can go on unfeeling
Or take that advice and run with it

I'm the keeper of keys to my own innocence
And I'm not ready to let go just yet

Cross your fingers till they bleed
And I'd love you either way

So I kept myself together
But he deemed me unworthy
And I hope you can fix me
Put my keys back into their places

And never let me go
Never let me down
Don't ever, ever regret me

He and I were never meant to be

A series of bruises and scabs
Crusted over and oozing blood
Such a pretty pattern
That the purples and greens make

I'm just happy he didn't leave too many scars

You wouldn't believe me would you?

I relive this every day, when the sleeves slide off

"Please save me from my mind"
These are the words I speak to you
If only I could get you to listen

You're a lost cause
And so am I
Why do you think we're 2 different sides?
In reality, we're a couple of pages from the same damn book
A bible of loneliness
Scripture from cupid himself

This is a broadcast to the empty
From a prime example

They surround me and the sun shines down
Yet I still feel alone here

Only when I see your smile

If I died right now I'd still be screaming
I hope you hear me through the crowd
But they're just as real as the love I feel for you

Who knows when my last meal will come
The last chance to look into your eyes
When I do I see hope
For love
And for you <3