I Cant Be

I can't be the friend you want me to be.
I can't be the friend you need me to be.
I can't be the friend who can make you laugh and dry your eyes.
I can't do all that while dying inside.
You’ve been there right along side me through it all.
While I felt i've just been driving you up the wall.
I'm so sorry for all the pain and worry i've caused I never meant to.
I wish the pain would go away and we could leave it for another day.
Maybe then I could be there for you like I want to be, but
I guess tht can't happen utill I find some kind of peace.