Hidden Emotions

Your words are sweet
It's comes so easy to you
Charming, quirky, you listen intently
Before even speaking those words
I fell hard and fast
Barely knowing

I dove right in, you accepted me
Things were the worst they'd been in a while
Of course I couldn't tell you
You understood and reciprocated
Hidden emotions, secrets and lies
You're someone else in the world than who I know

You disguise yourself everday, as do I
Afraid of society and their views
I was trying to sympathize regardless of ignorance
Blindly you won my heart
As it ached for you

We are nowhere near love,
Some would barely call us friends
Passersby with ties that bind us together
Then you said her name and I felt myself die
Yet I sat there, bravely, pretending
Staying strong in spite of myself

I swallowed hard, put on a smile
Never telling you the truth
That wouldn't do either of us any good
You feeling guilty, me a little sad
I don't wanna mess up what we've managed to create
I'd rather bite my tongue and cry

Broken, crying, lying in a ball trying to find sleep
Listen to my favorite song playin on repeat
The smooth voice crooning words that break my heart all over again
As I lie awake and think of you
I know this is too soon, it's too much
I can't lose you even though you aren't really mine