Masochist

Feel the unrelenting rain
Till the clouds have reached their end.
My mind ripped in half by pain,
But my heart still calls you friend.

You stand so far,
Yet I feel you near.
I see your scar,
And I hold it dear.
Reminiscence
Till my heart is torn.
Constant remembrance
Till my mind is worn.
Though I don’t regret,
I just can’t forget,
And holding onto sanity is painful.

Why can’t I just pretend
That you really were The One?
I don’t want these clouds to end;
I refuse to see the sun.

Forever I’ll wallow
In my self-pity
Until I’m hollow
And my life’s gritty.
When I see your face,
I force myself to stare.
My heart’d be out of place,
Without a hole right there.
I would let you go,
But I’m too emo,
And holding onto sanity is painful.

I want to just escape to a fanciful world...
And pretend that I still love you.
Pain has become a twisted pleasure to this pitiful girl...
And she will not let go of you.