Beep

Beep
Beep
Beep
As I slowly open my eyes the whole room is white.
It’s as if I had died and gone to heaven.
Would my own eyes deceive me like this?

I look around and see several machines
Looking down I see each one is connected to me
Falling back into the sea of pillows my eyes slowly close

The next time I awake everything is much clearer
But this time I feel pain in everywhere possible
My heart is pounding and I am sweeting like mad
I sit up in shock of it all, like reality just hit me

I know why I’m here, I know what went wrong
When my lover left, my soul was taken
I could no longer breathe without feeling pain
Every time I spoke I withered down and cried

The day my life changed, was the day I died
Waking up and reading last nights unread text
I simple sentence but so deep and meaningful
Only to my horror it was the last thing ever sent

Walking down stairs and seeing your friend crying
And someone else trying to calm there fierce screams
To be told that someone close to used had just died
That an accident and claimed his life with no remorse

Falling to floor and screaming a single tear falls too
Being forcefully picked put and held so tightly
The security warms me and makes feel like a dream
Only I wasn’t ever going to wake up from this

Being driven to identify, the world passing me by
All a blur, as if my time to had been taken from me
Like I was being taken to heaven to be reunited
Tears still rolling down my face and my hear aching

His face was so peaceful and beautiful
It was hard to believe he was no gone
I held his hand and gave my last kiss
I didn’t want to let go not now no ever

That first night was all a blur to me
All I did was cry and ache
I cried till my eyes were puffing
Till my head wanted to explode

It was the second night I did something
All I needed was to be with him once again
Anything to see his smile and feeling his soft skin
I couldn’t live anymore he was my life support

The river was dark and creepy in the moonlight
You could see the ripples of water forming
I stood and stared into the black water
But all I saw was his face looking back at me

I couldn’t take this anymore; I would for sure go mad
I took my last deep breath in and shut my eyes
A tear fell but it was too late, I jumped
Nothing stopped me I fell and fell

But then I hit the ice cold black water
Still nothing could save me from this
I just lay there still as I sunk
I sunk further and further down

Everything started to fade into the past
I could no longer feel any pain or heart ache
I was no longer sad, I would soon be with him
My last fort was of him kissing me as I saw him one more time

But as I lay in that hospital bed I felt more pain that ever
My chest was ready to burst and take me to him
Only someone came over to me, a face I’d seen before
And as if it was all a dream my pain slowly went away

As he whispered the simple sentence to me I love you with all my heart.
But this time he said ‘ your always be with me now’