Dead

Yeah, im a victim of abuse
I can't get over how I was just used.
All i can do is think about it.
I can feel the pain pulse through my body
The maggots are here for infestation
my mind races in circles.
The memories short and constant.
ALL DAY.
EVERYDAY.
break down
im falling down!
Just wishing to blow you away
you were inside of me
and now all I see is the image of your face.
Feel the touch of your hands
the memory of you undressing me....
Of ripping my clothes off as i kicked and screamed.
Yet i seem to remain calm
just an appearance.
Inside...
ive commited brutal suicide
Im metally gone.
Im emotionally DEAD.