Fogetting Past Pains

A frantic, urgent pulse
In the very center of my core
Pounding as fast as it is strong
A heartbeat pumping life into my pain

Breathing into me its torment
The steady humming of a river
Inside me, flowing more alive
Than the blood surging through my veins

How do I see?
When all that is left of the air
Is saturated with confusion
Too deep, I’m lost
Stumbling in a thickness
A forest of darkness

I’m drifting further and further
Out of my mind
Without a hand to carry me back
Into my lonely universe, forlorn
That not even hope can heal

How do I move forward?
From here when all that surrounds me
Is the rubble that my life has become?
In a world like this one,
How do I find the present?