Breathing For You

Breathing For You

Here I am.
Waiting.
Hoping.
Missing you like crazy.
Knowing you're gone for good.

I would do anything to bring you back to life.
I would give up my very last breath,
Just so you could have another.
My heart throbs when I think of you.
My eyes still well up.

I wish I could tell you
Tell you what you meant to me.
I can't begin to explain.
My body aches when I think of what happened.
My throat still closes.

I never got what I wanted.
Never got to tell you goodbye.
Never got to completely open my heart to you.
I feel like it shouldn't hurt as it does.
But I'm a wreck when I think of you.

Here I am.
Thinking.
Crying.
And breathing.
Breathing for you.

I breathe breaths I wish I could give to you.
Breaths that I don't want.
Breaths that sting my lungs.
Breaths that are hard to push and pull through my closed throat.
Breaths that are sometimes what hurt most.

But I still breathe.
Knowing you wouldn't want me dead.
Just as I don't want you to be.
Everything is painful.
But I'm still breathing.

Here I sit.
Aching.
Wishing.
But breathing.
Breathing for you.