I Remember You

I'm sitting outside and I'm looking up
I'm seeing the stars, saw one that just dropped
I'm crying so hard and it's just past two
Cause you said some things i didn't want to hear from you

I remember how you hold my hand so tight
I remember your kiss it just felt so right
I remember the things that you used to do
Damn! I'm crying... I remember you

When I felt so down, you made me smile
You cheered me up in your own style
When we got so lost, we laughed it all off
When I were so scared, you acted so tough

You would call yourself my own Edward Cullen
I'd smile, it was true, cause my heart you've stolen
You'd also call me your own Bella Swan
Our love was like "Twilight", we'd die for either one

I'm still outside, it's now three in the morning
Still holding the phone while tears keep on falling
I really couldn't tell if what I heard was true
All I can get right now is I'm still remembering you

You moved to Canada as I stayed right here
You called everyday, long-distance for me
I felt so lucky, so very much blessed
That God gave me you, and no more words said

But then I go back to what started my thoughts
It just hurts so much, so more tears I fought
I want this to be a dream - a nightmare disguised
Maybe a cruel joke or just a bad lie

The way you'd charm me with your cheezy phrases
The way you stayed with me through my hard weekends
Your pics in my bag, your numbers in all notepads
How could someone so perfect leave just like that?

I once called you loyal, I once called you just you
But I'd never believe that you'd be so true
You told me your last call would be addressed to me
That call came too soon, I would never foresee

I kept crying still, filled with so much regret
I wasn't beside you on your death bed
I'm sorry I didn't show you just how much I cared
Right now I just miss the relationship we shared

Thank you for making me part of who you are
Now you're up there along with the stars
It's four AM of February One Four
I'm remembering you as up above you soar

So I'll go back inside a very different person
Cry myself to sleep because of one reason
Sunday Mornings will never be the same
I hope you can hear me up there when I sing your name

I'll keep in my heart what you told me before
"I want you to smile." Your voice I miss more
I remember you said "Don't frown because of me."
I'm sorry, KN, if I'm breaking that wish

A fourteen verse poem for the day that you passed
You in my heart will forever last
Vanilla Twilight's in my head... Our song
I love you, I remember you, You're where you belong