Die Another Day

I'm so tempted to pull the trigger.
The barrel pressed so tightly to my temple,
I suspect a bruise.
I see you smile like nothing is amiss.
Like nothing happened.
Like I didn't pour myself apon you.
Like I didn't tell you the very thing that keeps me alive,
What weakens me,
What makes me stronger.
You've used what you know.
But for your own good.
I've kicked and screamed,
Pleaded and begged for you to release me.
Yet, you still hold me within your prison.
Chains burned into my mind,
Memories stamped, permenant(sp).
Even when I close my eyes,
I feel your eyes on me,
My very being cringes from your touch.
Now, as you come closer, a smile teases your lips as my heart races.
Wrapping your arms around me, pulling the gun from my hand.
Instead of throwing it away,
You press it against my chin, teasing withmy life.
Tears mix with blood.
Fear wrapped with love.
Hate twined with adortion.
The gun disappears and you lean in for another bite of heaven.
I guess I'll die another day.