Bleeding Hearts

Somewhere there's someone who knows all the answers.
What's up, what's down, when and why? but they never tell us the truth.
I've spent all these years playing by the rules,
I've accepted my losses and rejoiced in my wins.
But I've never seen things quite as they are now.

I'd like to believe things will work out,
I'd like to believe I planned it this way.
But the truth of the matter is nothing is ever as it seems,
How can I win a game I don't know how to play?

Things are different now; things are certainly progressing,
Change isn't always for the worst.
Sometimes inside, I'm spinning so quickly and I don't know how to stop.
When this rope snaps, where will I be?
Will I have learned anything or will I just be dizzy?

I'd like to believe things will work out,
I'd like to believe I planned it this way.
But the truth of the matter is nothing is ever as it seems,
How can I win a game I don't know how to play?

One day I'll figure it out. I'll get everything just right.
I won't be lost and I won't be ignored.
I'll finally have found what I've been looking for.
In this race I'm running faster than ever,
I can't stop or I know I'll lose.
I have people who love me and people to love,
Who cheer me on when I can't bring myself to.

I'd like to believe things will work out,
I'd like to believe I planned it this way.
But the truth of the matter is nothing is ever as it seems,
How can I win a game I don't know how to play?

In time, things make sense. So I'll endure as long as I must.
Maybe it'll be better next time, maybe I'll gain your trust.
But if this isn't what you want, you should have told me from the start.
It could have saved us both bleeding hearts.