SMG

My hear feels like its been ripped out of me.
I become tense and dizzy.
Tears start to falling on my paper.
Drip Drip Drip.
I have no clue what to do.
Really there is nothing I can do.
I wish I could change the past.
My world feels like its ended.
Some how I wish it would.
Nothing seems to work out.
Pain, Hurt, and Sadness wash over me.
My life was great. I messed it up.
He's taken.
I'm alone.
He's gone.
He can't see though he looks.
I shake and scream throughout the night.
He creeps into my mind, and doesn't seem to leave.
I wish he would at times.
Maybe I could try and be happy for once more.
Was I ever even happy?
I was. With Him.
Now he's gone. He leaves me. Doesn't care.
Though maybe I pushed him away.
It's my fault he left.
I am alone in a room where everything is dark and cold.
This seems to be the real me.