Lust of a lifetime

The lust of a lifetime,
Such a deadly little sin,

You have taken over my life,
When I though that I could win,

You push me through these boundries,
I'd never thought to break,

Well I'm here, I can't go back,
This was all a big mistake,

This was not a necessity,
Just my life caught out of sync,

This is not who I want to be,
But now I'm sitting on the brink,

I want to reach the surface,
Take a new breath of air,

But still I sink to this abyss,
It doesn't matter if you care.