IVE UPDATED THIS ONE (came up with a new verse) waiting ( i wrote this ages ago when i had some serious depression)

waiting for the day when my heart stops beating
sane on the outside, but inside i screaming
tears of blood and pain fling through the air
past death cold and icy stare
rejected and slain
my heart is a misery, my heart is a pain
my sanity is withering
every time they yell
my heart is dying
when they say goodbye
my soul is a shell of what
i once used to be
my path is blurry
why cant i see?

(this part is new)

slitting away the pain while my heart is beating
dreaming on the inside
outside im screaming
the pain of a loveless life has driven me
over the edge and into the sea
the sea of loneliness and lie's
and broken wings
but there is my boat
by yacht of life
drifting right by me
frozen in life
frozen in fear
that ill live another day
frozen in fear that ill take her away