Scared

I'm scared of the darkness
That closes me in
I push against its powers
Dodging every sin

I'm scared of the feelings
That confuse me to no end
No amount of flowing tears
Can help my weak heart mend

I'm scared of the darkness
That meets me at every turn
But let's face the facts
That's none of your concern

I'm scared of being your friend
And slipping up again
When all I really know
Is that you don't get it Ben

I'm scared of your love
I'm scared of your rejection
When what I really want
Is someone's affection

I'm scared of your feelings
Though you keep them hidden well
Leading me to only guess
Because you still refuse to tell

I'm scared of history repeating itself
And leading me to tears
The games you don't mean to play
Can affect the progress of my last two years

I'm afraid of falling to deep
Just like so long ago
Those years you never knew me
So it's impossible for you to know

How scared I am of this confusion
And the uncertainty that surrounds me
Because I don't know if I still like you
Or even who I want to be