Wishes

Just once could they give me a glance
Really they leave me alone
They ignore me and act like it was by chance
I don't blame things on my little sister

I wish I weren't such a child
And that i didn't cry
I wish the pain was mild
My tears are not allowed to be seen

So avert you eyes
I wish that I could leave
Everyone dies
So why can't I?

I know it is bad
And horrible
And sad
And wrong

But I wish it weren't like this
I wish I could make them stop
I wish I could seal it with a kiss
But even he can't stop what they do

Why is it so hard?
I really can't answer that
No card
Nor a sorry will make me forgive and forget

I wish I weren't such a sad sight
And that i didn't run
I wish the pain was slight
My footprints cant be followed

Maybe it is meant to hurt
To bruise
This isn't curt
This was meant for only me my dear

My dear little sweet sister
She wont understand
I am gonna miss her
I wish she did

I want to tell her my heart
I can't it is not allowed
We are separate and apart
I would have missed her if i had done it
♠ ♠ ♠
Love you Marian, yours Kitty-Kat