black lace

Delicate as lace,
my tears fall.
Bringing me one step closer to the abyss.
Day turns to night
as my eyes close.
People pushed back,
as i put up my walls...
As i retreat into my thoughts.
Unaware and uncaring of the world around me,
I sit.
Hearing and seeing nothing but my memories.
Nothng but the monsters of my past and present.
Struggling to go back to happpy thoughts,
and failing.
Already caught up in the nightmare.
Too far to be pulled back....
To be saved.
Not that it matters...
There's no one to catch me as i fall down into the abyss.
So I lay here at the bottom,
as crumpled as black lace...