04/30/2010

so today, I feel numb
completely and totally
empty;
I feel like something was taken
in the middle of the night
something, but I don't know what;
this feeling feels familiar
something I've felt before
when everything was-- over
when I was stuck in a state
of feeling uneasy and dead
when I couldn't breathe
and everything I knew
was broken
I think it all started when you died really
when my insides stopped working
and my chest was ripped open
only to leave me dry and heaving
lying on a cold floor
sweating and fading
slowly but surely
disappearing
why I'm still here
I'll never know
but sometimes i wish
I wasn't