Cold

Cold
It’s so cold.
My body and heart shivers from the cold.

It aches everywhere.
And now without you here,
If only I could regain myself
And whisper in your ear.

I cannot find peace.
As emotions arise, like rage.
And I ask myself, why?
I let these emotions in me be engage

I feel a deaf pain that nothing in my past can soothe.
The pain of being in solitude
And now with doubts crowding my mind
Myself, I think I can never find

But then again, that’s exactly what I want.
To be lost. Lost into oblivion
A wish no one will grant

I’ve dreamed of fading into nothingness.
And feel no pain at all
To escape the regrets I’m leaving behind
To let myself fall

If only, for one last time,
I could lose myself
in the warmth of your embrace,
in the heaven of your eyes.
So I can have that same certainty
That was replaced with bitter lies.