because I Loved You

You told me you were sorry
For all the pain you caused me
For all the hate you made me feel
For all the tears that spilled from my eyes
For all the bloody notes you sent
Telling me that the blood you spilt was because of me

How dare you bestow such a burden on my shoulders
I was the first to find your scars
And it hurt when you said “Because I love you”
I’m so afraid that if I love someone I will hurt them like I hurt you
And no matter how hard I try
I can’t tell myself that’s not true

What I don’t understand is this,
How can you say you love me
And blame your slit wrists on me

So my question is
Do I accept your apology
Or do I make you hurt like you hurt me?