I dont want to hear it.

My voice is shaking,
Making is hard to breathe.
What we once shared used to mean so much,
It was almost like it never happened.
I eventually found away to convince myself,
To keep saying that I hated you.
But when it came down to it I was wrong,
This feeling was kept safe and hidden.
To find it once again in my heart,
Made me want to cry like I did that day.
How can I say truce when you broke me,
Forgive you when I trusted you the most.
Sure that you would one day be mine,
Having it to all break down into place.
On the verge of reality it shows,
When I want to cry I cant.
Everytime it comes so does your image,
It makes me sorrow inside.
Brings back unwanted memories,
My conscience is telling me I was wrong to fall
But in reality if you think about it,
I never hated you for what you did.
I never wantedto say goodbye,
Forget every word I had said to you.
Everytime you were mentioned was hard,
I made sure it was filled with hate.
But the hate could never fill up this lust,
To mearly cover it up as if nothing.
To look at you again was emotionless,
Took me into thoughts I never wanted.
Making me realize what there was all along,
I lied to the poeple I out of sorrow.
Tricked into thinking I was content without you,
Going on with everyday pretending like we never met.
When all along I was scared to give in,
To know what I really felt.
Only in reality it wouldnt of mattered,
That we never spoke.
But I guess its time to admit it,
Never forget the day I say this.
Whether I like it or not,
Your perfect for me.
I cant help but want to look at you,
Just saying 'I love you' over and over again.