stay awake

God knows that im tired
But I wont fall asleep
Im afraid of what ill see
Im afraid of counting sheep
I cant keep on living like
I wear a golden mask
Its like I am locked up in a cage
Im drowning in the rain
Too many times have I been killed before
But it seems to entertain
And my lips they try to make the sounds
But they cannot form the words
And ill always be left on the ground
Just like a flightless bird

Ill stay awake
Until the day no longer comes
I cant remember why the water flows
But at least my heart still drums
Ill pretend that I don’t understand
The reflection in the wind
You’ve got me drifting through my blood shot eyes
Alone you left me pinned
Ill stay awake

I know that I need rest
But I just cant close my eyes
I know the truth will paint itself
Upon the closed lids I despise
And your silhouette keeps singing
I can hear it when I rise
So the key is not to fall asleep
And rehearse my subconscious lies
My mind will keep on screaming
Just like a film with no sound
The black and white images tease me
As I am lying on the ground

Ill stay awake
Until the day no longer comes
I cant remember why the water flows
But at least my heart still drums
Ill pretend that I don’t understand
The reflection in the wind
You’ve got me drifting through my blood shot eyes
Alone you left me pinned
Ill stay awake
So my brain wont speak the truth
Ive worked to hard to build this wall
I just cant let your memory push its own way through
Ill stay awake
Until the sun no longer shines
Ive forgotten why I opened the door
Why did I let you inside?
Ill stay awake