A Lesson in Reality

In a world of endless
uncertainties,
I'm a big mess of
insecurities.

Unsure of who
I should be,
to please those I love.
To make them want me.

I'm still wasting my time,
trying to define
the lies that surround me.
But the answers won't appear,
they're still very unclear,
for the time to be.

I never want to grow old,
'cause I'll forget the things I've seen,
and get lost in the chaos.

But, right now, the truth is so near,
yet so far away.
Its a step closer,
then one further each day.
And i fear,
that if I don't stay here,
I'll be forever waiting upon the day,
that reality is revealed to me.