As I lay down to sleep

As I lay down to sleep.
I hold in my tears.
So I do not weep.

As I lay down to sleep.
I think about this love.
That slowly starts to reap.

As I lay down to sleep.
Only one thought feels my mind,
The love we shared was once so kind.

As I lay down to sleep.
I count to ten.
And I think of my sin.

As I lay down to sleep.
I feel your lips brush my cheek.
So rough and your smell devilishly unique.

As I lay down to sleep.
I feel your caress.
Now I feel the stress.

As I lay down to sleep.
You take my lips with your own.
Now we're attached, as if we were sewn.

As I lay down to sleep.
I feel my heart leap.
I collapse, into a heap.

Oh why,
Didn't you just let me sleep?