Given Up

For some reason, I wont let myself cry.
Trying to forget the pain, from our goodbye.
I can look at your picture, or read through your letter.
Cause nothing I do makes me feel better.
I’m so complicated, I know that Its true.
I could never cry over anyone but you.
Death in my family, I don’t shed a tear.
Yet you not in my life, is my biggest fear.
I glance at my screen,
expecting your “Hey”, then I know I wont be getting that today.
I know we need time to try to pull out the knife,
but I can’t survive without you in my life.
I can’t handle the whole couple thing,
but to me, you being in my life means everything.
I know what I have to do to make myself better,
I can’t stop my eyes from getting wetter and wetter.
So I just have to let myself, and not stop to ask why.
I just need to give up, and let myself cry.