Trust

I like him I really do,
but I’m scared and
I don't know what to do.

He says he loves me
but is it true?
Can I trust him or
will he lie?

Should I believe him
at this time?
I'm scared I said "Yes."
now I'm really confused.

Can I trust him? Is it true?
or am I living in a fairy tale world?
Last night I almost died
but something pulled me back.

Was it him or my friends?
Maybe even both?
I'm not sure what to think
or how to act.

What pulled me back?
That guns trigger was almost pulled.
But something pulled me back
should I tell him what I've done?

Or keep it to myself
it all comes back to that
simple word Trust...
Can I? Can't I? Will I? Won't I?

I know I can make the right choice
but he needs to prove to me
how much he cares and
maybe that will come.

Since I’ve said yes.
Someday soon he will find out
who I really am
the person who lays
quietly inside me.

Just waiting for my wall to go down
Someday soon he will see the real me.
When I trust him
it’s always that five letter word.

I will tell him and let him in
when that word
makes a home in my heart.