Thunderstorm

In my mind its a raging torrent, a thunder storm of thoughts
But the thoughts of you never swayed never leave my mind
The way you touch, the way you feel, when you talk
You're so real
But in the real, there is my fiction
The one no one speaks of
The thoughts are rummaged, never filed
You pop up daily but never all the time
I think of you when I'm alone, you keep me sane at heart
I hear your voice, feel your touch, lost in that last hug
My thoughts convey you the way I remember
Not the way they think you are
I miss you so, but times are tender
The wormhole's ripped, the past isn't fun
Paradox of paradox in thought and speech
You find me different, unique and fun
I find that you're the one I love
Feelings not met, I'll wait to the end
Even unmet, I will not sway
Your thoughts will always remain
My heart is open, though not laying on my sleeve
I hope one day it's you I can truly believe
The lies of past, the truth of future
There's no telling where we'll end
My mind is a thunder storm
Raging in thoughts
Then you come along
And clear the thoughts away.
♠ ♠ ♠
its not about anyone but this guy I like, but we're friends. So its "complicated"...yeah...sure
I don't think anything is complicated, but nothing is easy either. So I guess it's in between if I tell him.
He's graduating in like less than a week, and it'll be months in between the times I can see him, since he is more of my brothers friend.
I'm not really looking for advice here, but I really wanted to get this out of my head, its one of the thoughts of him. Constant...beating...hurting...loving...