the gates are opening for me

I'm shaking at the legs ready to die as flash of beautiful strikes me..... i hit the the ground as I'm laying bleeding to death.. the hell gates open for me as i walking Thur them i wounder if this is the right path now that I'm gone no one care no love for me here... the Storm's keeps on coming trying to tare me down but i keep moving i hear a scream i run away into the darkness i cant see a thing i hear a voice its telling me everything will be OK for now I'm lost my love help me find my way back to u now no other way out but to face my fears head on u tell me I'm strong and i can make it but i don't think i can make it any longer it will kill me from the in side out like a dead crops be left alone to be forgotten from all life and living as i return from hell I'm not the only one alone in the world of darkness and loveless with my blood hands i stair into the reappearing Stitch's of pain that i can not forget about in this life that pushes me to the very end of living to no return of forgiveness of hate and pain iccame back to see you now that im hear u look like u don't even care do u know what i have been through to come back and see you as i walk away should i tell you that i love you i don't think i will it would kill me to hear you after my words were spoken but it would not hurt any i have been to hell and back its not worth my time to tell you how i felt every day i build with more anger and hate for you I'm trying to live without you but that is something that can t be done or can it i don't need anyomer pain from you u you day in and day out night turns to dawn my love grow strong but i still cant let it go of it for its to early to to tell if i can come open to and show u how my feeling for you now i die inside without you in my life my or do i even i have a life to die from or I'm just a lost soul roaming around coulees about anything going on in this so called life of happiness u lie to me there is only pain in this world and hurt its out there to get you ....... you cant get away from it no matter what you do it will always be with you ever step be hide you like a shadow creeping along side you for as long as you live to death it will be with you in your way like a scare left from memory's that make you cry as you close yours u get left be hide and you feel it all slipping away it just a tare in time made mistakes you made in the past now forgotten i can feel it in my mind like a gun shoot blowing you away to your free ticket out of here........ you think of it as nothing now but you as u pick the skin from bone you i found out the hard way everything is a lie in the end waiting for you at your weakest state of mind wile you are not protected from the pain it strikes like a knife happens fast but leaves a mark so noting in life is true don't believe anything its only you were all alone is this world