Look At What I Wrote.

Mother, Father,
Look at what I wrote,
I don’t mean to be a bother,
But you’re in this precious note.

Look here
See these lines?
They show happiness and fear,
And these are the dark designs.

Remember when,
We were still happy and whole?
I used to smile a lot back then,
Before there was so much pain in my soul.

Why did it start?
All the fighting, screaming and yelling?
All those things you said broke my heart,
Your anger made you do things that I’m not telling.

Father, why are you so mad?
Mother said you made a bad choice,
Why did you hurt her and make her sad?
It’s frightens me when you raise your voice.

Mother, why do you stay?
He hurts you and bruises your face,
Will it be better if we go far away?
Mother, take me away from this awful place.

What do I do?
Everything is falling apart,
Mother, I don’t know how to protect you,
And it’s truly breaking my heart.

Am I to blame?
Was I a horrible child?
Mother, Father, are you ashamed?
Was your love for me defiled?

First you wouldn’t look at me,
Now you ignore me all together,
Now all I have left are memories,
Because love doesn’t really mean forever.

It hurts,
Not just your harsh touch,
It stings as much as your words,
Father, Mother, I miss you so much.

Still I love you,
Even if you don’t want me,
I wish you knew
This isn’t how it was supposed to be.

So give me one more chance,
And maybe you’ll love me,
Dare even just a glance,
I’ll show you I’m sorry.

I’ll show you my work of art,
My masterpiece, my dark design,
It shows my empty, broken heart,
Can you see the crimson seeping lines?

Did I do something right?
Mother, Father, I really tried,
But you’re to busy in another fight,
So I’ll wait for you on the other side.

I don’t mean to be a bother
But look at what I wrote,
Mother, Father,
You’re in my suicide note.