This moment

As I lay here
I try to hide
Every ounce of pain inside.
You've hurt, lied, cheated me
You've encouraged, loved, and tendered me.
To apart, would kill my heart
But I feel its best for us to leave this love.
I can no longer take this pain
This fear, these tears, that come my way
Are we even real anymore?
Did you really care how I felt before?
I'll take my time, and hide this pain
But it's your loss
And you to blame.