Love Sick

I'm just a little lovesick.
Lost in the stereo,
Listening faintly,
To the dead sounds of my lively heart beating radio.
I'm not sure what just happened.
Not butterflies, those don't hurt.
I recieved your message,
And I know you're persistant.
"What's Wrong?"
You call it anger,
I call it pain.
I'm not angry.
Well,
At myself,
Because here I am,
Continuing to chase you.
Hiding what I feel.
I can't tell you that I feel this way.
I don't believe I know what love is.
Do I love you?
I wanna say that's what it is.
But I can't bring myself to.
I'm afraid.
Because I know you love her.
She never told you she had a boyfriend,
Did she?
You see that I'm not okay,
But I won't tell you what's wrong.
You taught me to lie,
You're advice gets me along,
But I'm not being open with you.
Not anymore,
Because that means hurt,
You don't like me that way,
And quite frankly,
I really don't wish to hear you say,
"I'm sorry."
I don't want it.
You taught me to be different than that.
I've decided not to be open with anybody,
Sorry.
That's what I told you,
And what did you reply?
Didn't get one yet.
I'm just a little lovesick,
If that's what this is.
My heart seems to speed in it's tick,
When your name appears on my phone screen.
I wish you knew,
You're loving her,
Really, Really Hurts.
I'm just a little lovesick,
For the music seems to help,
And if I didnt know any better,
I'd say its my band-aid.
But I do know better,
Enough to know,
You told her you loved her,
She never told you about her boyfriend,
And I'm dying on the inside
Haha,
No.
Don't worry,
I'll be okay, but you know I'm lying,
I'm just a little really lovesick,
I promise,
That's all this is.