I am comfusing

I am confusing,
for my mind works in backwards ways..
If I say I love you,
I really don't..
Unless I say I love you
In a sarcastic way..
But really, when I say I love you
I do..
When I say I'm happy
I'm actually sad,
because I'm happy
and because I'm happy,
I'm sad
I may say I'm glad
but I envy you
and wish you'd die
no just kidding,
About the envy part...
but no i need you alive,
cause if your dead,
you can't live as my friend..
or can you?
Ok, now take all I said,
and make a backwards meaning to my poem,
then do it again,
and again...
cause you'll get the same answer..or will you..
just try...
no don't try..
I'm being sarcastic..
I am comfusing