Shouldn't You, Shouldn't I?

I try so hard,
as you should know,
Shouldn't you?
I try and please you,
as you remember,
Didn't you?
And I fall hard,
As I dreamed of happy lives,
Other than me because of your lies.
Or is it truly dreams all the time?
At any rate,
My smiles are plastered,
As I wave you goodbye.
You thought I would stay,
You cheating fly?
No, no,not anymore.
I see your eyes,
Your hidden discise.
Give it up,
But Dear I know you won't,
Murderous thoughts appear.
Shouldn't I?
~Jessie