What can take my pain away?

Knife meets skin,
The numbness begins.
Music comes on,
The pain's still not gone.
I hear my favorite song,
The tears go on.
No one sees through the smile,
I've got pasted on my face.
No one sees the lies,
As I say,
"Everything's okay."
My "best friends,"
"family,"
everyone who says they care,
Which I used to believe,
But now I see,
No one's really there.