Puppet

please don't tell me that I'm a fake
my life is a piece of cake
that I'm dying for attention
it isn't that all
have you ever felt the pain
the numb that goes in your brain
you can't understand or judge until you feel
all control slip
your mind just can not work
my mind is shutting off
logic lost on a lost child
I'm trying hard not to show
all the demons that I hold
but someone needs to know
the pain I feel
the one that tells me i'm a monster
the one that tells me the strangest things
the one that helps me rock back and forth
until i can put on my mask anagin
never show the crazy side
only the happy side
no ever needs to see me cry
so I'll smile
I'll laugh
I'll hide my feeling
and be a puppet on my own
femon's strings