Knife Vs. Pen

It's all a battle.
Of knife versus pen:
Pen To Paper,
Or Kinfe To Skin?
Either way, the pain's still there,
Pain from break-ups,
Stress,
Having no one to care.
Writing it out,
The pain isn't numbed,
So I grab the knife,
Make the slits,
On my wrist.
Now the battle is over,
But it makes no sense:
Why consider the pen,
When the knife always wins?