Sea of Emptiness

Depression.
It controlled me,
It became who I was, who I feared,
My happiness no longer appeared,
I was no longer free.

The pain crawled into my soul,
It scarred the walls of my heart,
Ripped my Hope apart,
Left my insides as black as coal.

I became a prisoner, trapped inside
This rotten thing once called a heart
Piece by piece, It tore my insides apart,
Leaving me in my shame to hide.

I was lost in a sea of emptiness,
Shadows of pain plastered my soul,
I was broken, by those who once made me whole,
I was a mess.

Fake Joy bandaged my scars,
Infecting my pain,
Leaving more scrapes of shame,
Trust was shattered, engraving more scars.

Numbness was welcome,
It painted my wounds with false power,
Cleansing them with a dirty shower,
Feelings were no longer welcome.

Pain hid beneath my painted wounds,
Growing stronger with every scar on my wrist,
My scars were poisoned with pain's kiss,
Leaving my soul shattered and ruined.