in a little while, i promise

confusion
sweeps across her mind.
could she do it?
could she bear to do it?
it crawls along her skin
and seeps through.
she shudders;
the feeling is just
magic.
her mind is set, but
there's still
questions left.
forces her head up
to the sky
and she cries
naked tears
as pain like needles
in her arms and
feet
twist and turn.
can't let go,
but here she is,
looking to the skies
of rainbow rain
and beauty.
such wonder in a needle
pain.