H O U R • T E N

Alone is like the silence I never thought you’d let me hear.
Bellowing out commands to cut me down,
It smothers me, drops me, kicking me under,
Hoping I don’t get up again.
It seems we fall as hard as we can possibly fall.
We stumble, trip, and collapse,
Collapse into the very things that bring us here.

Here.
You shout to me the very words, I never heard you say.
The memory is there. But I can’t seem to find it.
I heard you say goodbye.
I heard your footsteps leave.
I ran from the noise that followed me.
The sound rang through my eardrums.
And I sank as though you tripped me from behind..

Lavished in the thoughts, that you could push me to fall.
Crashing through my ears, the sound had its way with me.
Everything I never heard you say.
Everything I ever saw you do.
Anything I ever let you tell me.

I never heard it.
Never heard you say it.
Never thought you’d do it.
Never let you tell me.

But you did.
Roaring through my ear drums. I heard it.
Everything I never heard, and nothing but goodbye.
The silence echoed loudly all around me.

Alone. The dreams you swore I’d never have.
I heard that. I heard the ear splitting echoes,
Rustling from ear to ear. Beating the drums of sureness.
I heard the pure, splitting silence of alone.