so close to being done

what happened? what could I
have done to keep my life the
way it was I let people push me
around until one day I cracked
I screamed at the top of my lungs
hopping you would hear me.

you left a month before this started
you caused this you caused me to
go insane you caused my life to fall
and crummble around me you left.

everyone soon gave up just like you
did you caused this pain and hurt
that I can't bare anymore I grab the
gun and slowly put it to my temple
you want to see hurt ok then.

I pull the trigger and fall to the floor
I could have been better but I guess
god didn't want me to have the things
I wanted I was so close to being done
and getting out of here.