I HATE YOU!

You laugh at me like I’m some kind of comedy act
In my face and behind my back
You think my life is a fucking joke,
How the hell do you think I feel,
When you always treat me like shit?
I’m about to break,
This is more than I can take
How would you fucking like it
If I said all the wrong things
If I made you cry
If I made you want to die?
You add more scars to the many
The physical and emotional
But you’ll never know.
You say you’re my friend
But if this is friendship
I don’t want yours,
I’d rather have enemies
At least I’d know what to expect.

I hope you fucking choke
On the words that you spoke
You want to make fun of me?
How about I show you what it’s like to be me?
How about I give you the tools
A razor, an IPod, a broken spirit.
How about I make you bleed
How about I make you need?
Need love and affection
Instead of hate and neglection.
I hope you bite your fucking tongue off
With all the mocking and evil you talk.
You say it like you mean it
And I know you do.
Don’t you think I hate myself too?
I wish that I could be happy
And not be scared of what I see
In the mirror everyday
My eyes faded a little more today
The light is sparking out.

You make me feel like I’m worthless
That I’m a waste of space
And I’m trying to let you know
What you’re doing to me
That this time I mean it
This time I can’t take anymore.
I feel the pain in my very core.
I think I was gone long ago
And yet you still think it’s funny.

Will it still be funny
When my blood is on your hands?
Will you still laugh
When I’m a ghost of nothing?
Will you even feel regret
Or will you just keep me a secret?
A past never to be revealed
A deal forever sealed.
Maybe you’ll stop when it’s far too late
When I’ve already fallen
Because I’m already broken.

I hope you feel real fucking good about yourself
I hope you had a real good fucking laugh
While it fucking lasted.

I’ve had enough
If you want to stay a bitch
Then that’s your business
And don’t give me that shit about
Bitch=nature=beautiful
Because even nature rots and destroys.

I have nothing to stay for
I’m a promise already broken
Finished before I started
Dead before I ever got to breathe.
I’m going to sleep now,
Maybe I won’t wake up
With your snicker the last think I hear.

I hope spirits exist
So I can haunt you
Everyday of your fucking worthless life
I HATE YOU!!!
I hope you rot in hell
I hope I’ll get to watch
I hope you scream in agony
And I hope you’ll remember me.
I want to stay burned in your memories
I want you to beg for forgiveness
Something you’ll never receive
With my last dying breath
I’ll scream “I Hate You!”
All while wishing I was in another place
How does hopelessness taste?
I know all too well

I’m stuck in this world of hell
Can’t I live for once?
Can’t you let me breathe a carefree breath for once?
Is it too much to ask for?
Why must I always be angry and hate-filled?
Why do you make me like this?
Does it make you feel fucking good inside?
Do you get off on the suffering of others?
Why do you make me want to die?
Why do you make me want to commit suicide?

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!